Observations/Reflections: On Simultaneous Experience of Joy and Agony
Status: Dictated but Not Reviewed
Published: 10/11/2010
Written: 8/5/2010
Dictated By: Flint McGlaughlin

I don't understand how joy and agony can co-exist within the same person, even within the same instant. Life is an inversion of paradoxes. One can be full of joy, and yet full of agony. The human container is too frail. A soul cannot contain the whole truth. This is what separates me from the ultimate. I cannot bear what I know. I cannot bear the knowing of what I don't know either. But amidst the overwhelming desperation is a sense that the edge of beauty is only experienced at the edge of frailty. When all I experience is too much, I come to value the marvelous potential of life. Joy and agony can co-exist. Beauty is evidenced when they touch.